Fractured

I can't seem to fix this thing.
Though I have tried many times.
And my attempts seem only to have worsened the situation.
What fractured the relationship I still can't fathom.
I have known them my whole life.
Would never have thought them so judgemental.
Or that their good opinion once lost would be forever.
So after all these years,
The pain is raw.

The realisation that they will not always be around,
And reunion seems unattainable.
Upsets me beyond measure.
I know that the time will come when they could need me.
But maybe that need will be filled by a generation skipped.
All I know is the hopelessness and the sense of mourning
That despite being so close in proximity,
We seem to have lost each other forever.